January is always a busy month for me; two boys, two birthdays, 20 days apart so I tend to let those “new year, new you” posts slip by the wayside until I get past the calamity that is January. It’s really a month of recovery and introspection and I use it to the fullest.
This year I’ve decided to combine that “this year is a blank slate” stuff into one post. I know other people don’t believe in reinvention or affirmation of goals (or even making goals) but I do. I believe it’s important to look back on where you’ve been and figure out where you’re going, even if your plan making is better left to monkeys in the circus, it’s better to have a some plan of where to go and what to do than none at all.
I also decided to really hone in on what those “words of the year” mean. There are three this year that I’m focusing on; faith, perseverance, and bravery. Last year was difficult and full of change, I’ve set in motion changes for this year – these words, if I focus on, believe in, and practice what they mean to me, will get me through.
On the goal front, I’m choosing myself over everything else.
Become more involved with my interests – knitting is an interest, obviously and it keeps me sane. It calms me and helps me focus. Knitting absolutely brought down my dangerously high blood pressure while I was sitting in the emergency room panicking about how I was going to get to the hospital in Anchorage and who would care for the kids. But I want to take my interest to a new level. I’ve toyed with ideas from starting a new blog entirely focused on the yarn and my love of it, to selling small items for a rainy day fund.
Fill a journal – At the end of 2015 I all but came out and said I need to fall in love with my journals. I have a stack of empty or near empty ones and that has become unacceptable to me. The three wise asses (who you may or may not know, may or may not be) sent me journals for Christmas. They know my heart and the best way to repay them is to fill them. It may not be ones they sent, but filling a journal is huge step on my mission in 2016 for a more complete and cared for, me.
Make it home for a visit – This goes without saying. My heart misses home in ways I never expected. I never much cared for Ohio’s flat farm land but when you don’t see those golden fields of wheat or corn stalks (knee high by the fourth of July), you miss what you took for granted. It took me leaving to realizing that I had everything I could’ve wanted or needed in the Buckeye state. I can’t reconcile within myself that I don’t fully belong here, as much as I’d like to. I need to reconnect somehow with the hole being gone has created inside me.
Read all the books – Ugh. I failed so miserably on my reading goals for last year. I got overly excited and borrowed a ton of books on my Kindle but never read them all (or any of them really). In fact the only thing I did read was an audio book (so it’s not reading, it’s driving and listening or knitting and listening) and one other book that I devoured in one night. That was it. I know I read magazine articles and blog posts but those don’t count when you love (with an unhealthy passion,) books. So. Books. I will read them. And I will tell you about them.
This year need not be complicated to be amazing. I may combine a bit of both though to keep it, interesting.